Checking on facebook, looking for transitive friends in friends networks…
And I’m hitting people in the friends lists of friends who, though according to the “where we met” information, I should also know, my memory is coming up with a bunch of 404 errors.
A few, I’d be okay with. Because I’m not so mired in the geek social fallacies or egotism to think that, frex, everyone that my friends knew at university, I would automatically also have met, or at least met regularly enough to register in what’s laughably called my mind.
I’m the first to admit that I stumbled through most of my life paying very little attention to anyone, and definitely less than most deserved*… and surnames were, mostly, a vague noise (and first names often little more).
But I can quote chunks of plays, tv shows, movies, songs word perfect from memory.
Which leads me to the conclusion that my mental search engine is ger-schplatten for anything but showbiz trivia.
So, partly an appeal to anyone who thinks they know someone I used to know who I should remember to refresh my search engine for me, and partly an apology… I have been a social inadequate, an egotistical attention whore who used you to boost what little self worth I had, and if you can bear to get in touch with me again, I would be deeply honoured
*”I know half of you as well as I’d like, and like less than half of you as well as you deserve” could be my epitaph.